Lil Nas X has released his anticipated single “MONTERO (Call Me By Your Name),” and a video to accompany it. Throughout, X goes into his own world of self-love (in more ways than way), breaking free, and even sliding to hell and dancing with the devil.

X, born Montero Lamar Hill, shared a message behind “MONTERO (Call Me By Your Name),” posting a letter to his younger self.

“Dear 14-year-old Montero,” the post reads. “I wrote a song with our name in it. It’s about a guy I met last summer. I know we promised to never come out publicly, I know we promised to never be ‘that’ type of gay person, I know we promised to die with the secret, but this will open doors for many other queer people to simply exist. You see this is very scary for me, people will be angry, they will say I’m pushing an agenda. But the truth is, I am. The agenda to make people stay the fuck out of other people’s lives and stop dictating who they should be. Sending you love from the future. -LNX”

“I wanna sell what you’re buyin’, I wanna feel on your ass in Hawaii/ I want that jet lag from fuckin’ and flyin’, Shoot a child in your mouth while I’m ridin’/ Oh, oh, oh, why me?/ A sign of the times every time that I speak, A dime and a nine, it was mine every week/ What a time, an incline, God was shinin’ on me/ Now I can’t leave. And now I’m actin’ hella elite/ Never want the niggas that’s in my league, I wanna fuck the ones I envy, I envy”

Lyrics Via. Genius

Download “MONTERO (Call Me By Your Name)” here, and watch the video below.